I just don't know

what I want anymore.
I try so hard
for the things that make me happy
so fucking hard
to make everything okay for everyone
and then when something doesn't go right,
I feel like it's my fault.

I kind of wish it was my fault, so I could correct it
but when it's not my fault,
and there's nothing I can do to change the way people feel about something
I feel utterly helpless.

I wish I could save the world
But for now, I'm left... watching it fall.