Who knows

if anyone reads these. Hah, some part of me, actually a huge part of me hopes someone does.
Today, I woke up Dan's arms and I've never felt more amazing. Despite my medical situations right now that keep me in immense pain at the moment, I just looked at this amazing person, kissed his face and thought how lucky I am to have him wrapped around me. What's worse, is that every time I talk to him, or think about him, I get those obnoxious butterflies in my stomach.

In other news, I have no idea what's going on in my life besides him. Actually, now that I realize it, thank God for him, because without him, and a few other select friends (C,J,D), I'd probably be in a mental breakdown right now. They're pretty much the only thing I'm sure about...

And I know that I'm going to leave soon....
As current endeavors close, the "C" word unfortunately becomes the primary picture.
And as much as I told myself I'd tough it out, I fear that my page won't turn that way....
I don't want to leave him behind, but I'm terrified that I'll have to.


Please God, no.